Run Run Run

If I could run away now, I would.

Leave behind all I used to know.

Run to a strange place.

Where's not a soul know where Im coming from.

I feel like run away now.

Leaving behind what I uses to love.

I will pack light, I promised.

Just myself and the memories.

I want to run away.

Its not that Im hating this place.

I just want a different place.

Im not sure if I still know myself.

It would be nice if I can run away.

I will start a new chapter.

Leaving behind my old self.

I just want to feel myself, be with myself.

I will run.

Escape.

Run in order to survive.

I will survive

Sitting in a meeting room with those managers and specialist make me feel small.

I am the only tudung-wearing-malay-lady and the youngest and least experiene among all.

Deep down I feel proud that I have make this far. 

But most of the time I feel incompetent.

Lillahitaala. Ikhlas. Kerana Allah untuk Islam. 

InshaAllah. Semoga Allah permudahkan.

Inception

I think my husband is a gift from Allah. I am forever thankful.

Yesterday was a routine weekend for us where we went for groceries and spend time together as our weekdays are busy with work.

"Tomorrow is back to reality. Monday. Sigh. I wish we could be like this everyday. We don't have to work. We just enjoy each other companion side by side."

"So you dont like the reality with me? Because I love the reality with you by my side" My husband said.

"Errm.... It's not like that...."

"Reality is good and what makes us human. We will treasure it more. If we have sunday everyday, we will be like in the inception where leonardo trying to find past memories because he was busy living in his own fantasy. Human need challenge and that is the only way we can become better."

I love you husband. Always my inspirational.

Now get back to work Naz!

Muah ciked.😘

A new hello

Hi.

Im back. I miss writing and I miss putting my thoughts in words.