When Im with you

Conversation of the day.

CAKAP OMPUTIH
Situasi : Memangil atok yang sedang melipat baju di biliknya manakala saya berada di ruang tamu.

"Atok, oo atok" (dengan nada yang agak kuat)

"Yes, what YOU DO want?, cewah"

Atok saya boleh jadi comel pulak kadang-kadang.

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LOMPAT
Situasi : Boifren saya melihat wallpaper phone saya. (gambar sedang melompat seperti di previous post)

"Manja, you kuruslah sikit, bukan apa....."

"Yela, I tahu, I dah gemuk." (dengan nada sedih)

"I tengok gambar you lompat ni pun macam susah je, berat badan you nak melompat"

Cis. Benci.

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60's TV
Situasi : Boifren saya menyanyikan lagu 60's TV nyanyian kumpulan OAG selepas melihat perut saya.

"Kenapa tiba-tiba you nyanyi lagu ni?" (seriously I don't get it, why)

"Im watchin, im watchin. im watchin 60's TV.." (part 60 tu kuat suaranya)

".........."(still tak paham kenapa)

Tiba-tiba baru faham.

Dia memperli saya kerana 'melihat' 6okg.

Boifren saya bijak, bukan?

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BRANDED ICE CREAM
Situasi : Bercerita tentang aiskrim, makanan kegemaran saya bersama boifren.

"You tahu tak, cousin i yang duduk kat saudi cakap, kat sana takde brand aiskrim yang murah macam walls kat sini. Kat sana cuma ada aiskrim baskin robbins, haagen dazs, etc.."

"o, yeke, aiskrim calong takde lah?"

"hah? aiskrim calong? apa tu? tak pernah dengar pun brand tu. sedap ke?"

"ala, aiskrim calong you tak tahu? takpe nanti i bawak u makan eh"

"macam mana spell brand dia?

"C-A....eh, C-H, i pun tak igt la.." (waktu ni saya dah dapat rasa dia tipu)

"elehh..you tipu! aiskrim calong tu aiskrim malaysia kan?"

"bukan, aiskrim calong ni bawah dia ada crunchy-crunchy."

"yeke? macam bes je. mana nak dapat?" (nada TERUJA gila time ni)

"hahahaha. aiskrim calong ni aiskrim kat motor la, ngok!"

"yeke..."

"abestu u panggil aiskrim kat motor tu aiskrim ape?"

"aiskrim motor" (jawapan bangang sebab tak tahu nak jawab)

B, kan senang you cakap aiskrim kon. ni tak. aiskrim calong. TAK PAHAM.

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I miss spending time with him. Banyak je benda kelakar entah apa-apa lah muncul. Esok kerja. Entah kenapa rasa tak bersemangat. Mungkin lepas makan aiskrim calong baru bersemangat kot... Hmmm..................

I feel better!

*pic taken yesterday at balai cerap UTM while visiting my sis*

Alhamdullilah. Im back on my feet. Ready, set, go!

;)

P/S:- It such a shame that I had to see a doctor because I was so stress over my weight and the doctor telling me that "you're not fat to me" wtf! after I explain that I've gain weight (like a lot!), he's still said the same thing thing and it is just my psychological. wtf once more!

What embarrassed me more the doctor told me to "exercise, girl, exercise! don't make excuses!" damn it! malunyaaaaaaaa! T___T

Anyway, Im glad I met u, doc.

Have a happy weekend!!

Emo

I was not in a good shape recently. I am sure who were close to me know how much I complaint about my weight. Anyone can judge me and saying 'what's the big deal about weight issue? its not world crisis'. It is true though. But I can't help it and feel damn stress about it.

I can't fit almost 80% of my clothes. I tore my jeans that used to be loose at the waist. I gained 10kg in 2years time. My appetite for food increased. I don't jog like before. I eat like a pig. That is the ugly truth.

I don't take care of my body like I used to. I feel like it's too late for me. I always feel insecure and my confidence level decreased. I dont buy clothes like I used to. Free size does not fit me anymore and they will show off my flabby evil tummy.

What hurts me the most is, I am not the same girl my boy used to date. I am not the girl who always take care of my appearance. I always wear loose and baggy clothes nowadays to hide my ugly fugly body shape. Yeah, Im stressed about it. I eat a lot more after that to relieved myself.

What kills me is that, my boy make confession saying I should watch over my weight. He never said that before because he dont really like me being thin. But that is definately a signal that my weight is too much! Ofcourse I feel damn sad about it.

One day, I told my boy that I feel sorry for him because his girlfriend does not look like the same girl he dated because of Im being overweight. To my surprise, he reply back saying "Yela, you mana sayang I. You sayang makanan you lagi". Damn. Rasa macam kena stab right through my chest. And, he's not kidding.

I feel sad about it. I feel like he's not proud of me anymore. I feel like Im not the best girlfriend anymore. I feel like a loser. I bet he must have the impression "ni belum lagi kahwin. dah kahwin mesti lagi gemuk macam godzilla." Next thing I know I have a second wife. fml.

I know, its easy for people to say, "Diet lah", "control makan tu" or "exercise lah". But I found it so damn hard to do it, I feel give up even before I start it. Thats the problem. I should take all the humilation as motivation, but I turns out to be opposite. I feel motivated and down.

Please find me the courage to change.....

Heels vs Flats....and the winner is....

NO. so not in love

YES. in love for-ever!

High heels and I don't really get along well. No matter how I want to be comfy with them, they'll always bite me and gave me pain! Either cheap or expensive heels, they rarely become my favourite. Only flats pumps and wedges can become my bestfriend. T_T

I bought a lovely denim pumps. I swear I fall in love the first time I saw them! They're perfect for formal to smart casual wear. Butttt, the heels is killing me!! Urgh!! Why?? I tengok orang lain bahagia je pakai heels.

After a few days, I cannot take it anymore. Serta merta beli flats yang tersangat comel di mata dan juga di kaki. I love you more. Muachx! (Sorry heels, we're not meant to be)

Perk me up

"Those who wish to sing, always find a song"

"You were not born a winner, and you were not born a loser. You are what you make yourself be."

and my favourite....

"Courage, sacrifice, determination, commitment, toughness,heart, talent, guts. That's what little girls are made of; the heck with sugar and spice."

-Bethany Hamilton

Kerja Rumah

Hello. Quick updates.

1. Im in hopeful mood. Hopeful for better oppurtunity in my career. Hopefully everything will go on well and I scored them! Amin!!

2. My aunt and cuzzies coming back from saudi. The "un-best" part is I have to bear with my granny that nag and nag and force me to do all the works at home. Susahnya takde maid. :(((

3. I love my bf. (we've been in fight and baru je baik. kecohnye!)

4. I love my parents and sibling. (everyone does, naz, get a life!) haha. just because Im touched how supportive they are and I never thought they would care that much.

5. I spend lotsa $$$ and I feel bad about it.

6. I eat a lot and again, I feel bad about it!!

7. Planning for next vacation.

8. Been thinking to buy eat, pray, live book.

9. Planning to visit my sister's soon. (how soon? not sure!)

10. Planning to meet Aishah and Belle (my ex-roomie)

11. Banyaknya plan! Ok lah. Nak sambung mop lantai. Bye!

Teknik dan Google

Morningg guys!

The wheather seem so nice over here. Windy with a little sunny. Sejuk je rasa. Malas-malas di katil memang a total bliss at the weekend.

Kenapa ye, hari ni semangat sangat nak tulis blog, sebab nak cerita something that happened masa kerja hari itu.

My boss asked me to find out a company named Teknik Janakuasa. It is the subsidiary of Malakoff.

So, I googled la the company named with him(my boss) sitting beside me. After the moment I type "teknik", those appeared.....

I was like 'aaa, malunya! Bos aku ni faham ke tak faham ek'. Nak tergelak pun ye jugak. By the way, my boss is a chinese. He's a Malaysian, tapi dah duduk abroad lama sangat dan tak fasih bahasa melayu.

And then, dia sibuk macam nak cari nama company dalam suggestion list tu. Company ni tak famous, so keyword dia tak appear lah.

Haha. Teknik. Teknik....

p/s- Sorrylah bahasa rojak. Rojak sedap dimakan. Enjoy your weekend~