For those who are too gentle to live among wolves

Al Haq

Its been a busy week (and month) as usual and I can foresee that this situation will continue until early of next year.

Work is heavy and loaded but I decided not to take it hardly as I think it is not worth to worry about it. I had small chat with daddy and I told him about my work and he said something that ease me up. :)

My current phase in a career had make me think. About life in general. I believe that everything that we had experience now, before or about to experience in the future is all coming from Allah S.W.T permission. The acceptance of all the things that happen to us is just a beautiful feeling. Knowing that Allah is taking care of the things that beyond our control.

I had started reading Quran tafsir recently. I bought one from MPH and I knew it is time to read the tafsir as I always planned to but never take action.

It is just simply beautiful and calming when we read the tafsir. And as I read the tafsir in this week (about less than 10 pages) I realize, there's 2 ayat that saying '....sesiapa yang mengikut suruhan Allah tadak akan bersedih hati....' It sound something like that. It make me think that memang fitrah manusia suka bersedih hati. But Allah had given His word that whoever obey his rules will not be sad or worry.

Memang betul. Allahu Akbar.

Oklah. I want to start working. See you!

Write Again

Assalam and hello!

After like 5 months on hiatus, now I am finally feel like writing again.

I get my feet on the ground. Alhamdullilah.

So many things to write about, especially about how's life treating me so far.

I am blessed and happy and feeling good. =D

Just assume this short post is a comeback from me. Will definitely post more after this.

Take care!

Love,
Still Primadona

Patience

Everything that happen has it purpose. Now only I understand.

Is it worth it?
Can you deal with it?
Is it the best?

Yes. InshaAllah.
Yes. InshaAllah.
Yes. InshaAllah.

Whatever going to happen in the future, I have faith in Allah. My heart is only for Him.

Patience.

I love you with fire red now its turning blue

I don't care

Hello.

Surprisingly, I don't feel sad anymore. Alhamdullilah. :) We weren't meant to be. I always believe Allah knows what best for me. So, I am okay with it.

It just I've been thinking, all of this time was a lie. Sigh...

Cheer up love! Here's a great song for you.

Mirrors

"Mirrors"


Aren't you somethin' to admire?
Cause your shine is somethin' like a mirror
And I can't help but notice
You reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and
The glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always
Parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original
Cause it doesn't seem merely assembled
And I can't help but stare, cause
I see truth somewhere in your eyes
I can't ever change without you
You reflect me, I love that about you
And if I could, I
Would look at us all the time

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul
I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go
Just put your hand on the glass
I'll be tryin' to pull you through
You just gotta be strong

I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now
And I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

Yesterday is history
Tomorrow's a mystery
I can see you lookin' back at me
Keep your eyes on me
Baby, keep your eyes on me

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now
I'm lookin' right at the other half of me
The vacancy that sat in my heart
Is a space that now you hold
Show me how to fight for now (please show me, baby)
I'll tell you, baby, it was easy
Comin' back into you once I figured it out
You were right here all along

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making
Two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

You are, you are the love of my life
Now you're the inspiration for this precious song
And I just wanna see your face light up since you put me on
So now I say goodbye to the old me, it's already gone
And I can't wait wait wait wait wait to get you home
Just to let you know, you are

You are, you are the love of my life
Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do
You're my reflection and all I see is you
My reflection, in everything I do

Bliss

I woke up feeling numb this morning. As if I don't have feeling. Have my bath, grab my breakfast and off to work.

Every morning, I feel like going to battle of war. A war with my feeling, emotion and traffic ofcourse. Traffic really teach me the meaning of patient.

Then I start with doing daily report until 9 am. Had my breakfast I bought earlier with hot nescafe or milo, depends on mood.

Battling with the sales team, finance and of course myself, to fight feeling down and beaten in between before I go back home.

Basically that is my daily routine. I bet yours is not much different than mine.

Fun

I am a boring person. Zzzz... Sometime I don't know how to have fun. I am a serious person most of the time. I only know how to have fun with certain people. BORING!

But there is one person who never fail to make me laugh... My siblings are awesome but this particular person is just difference!

IMYSM. I wish I can say to you 'come home darling' but now is not the time yet.

Come home please?

That awesome moment.....

Dear Self,

That awesome moment will come.

Remember when you were 6 years old? You change kindergarten from 'Tadika Abim' (an Islamic based syllabus when I was 5 yeras old) to 'Tadika Bistari' (English based syllabus)? You don't know how to read in English while all your classmate know how to read them. It was 'Ladybird' book series of 'Peter and Jane'. You English teacher, Ms Alice make you stand up in front of the class because you can't read. You feel ashamed and you hate teacher Alice with her long nails and pink nail polish.

What do you do? You ask your parents to buy Peter and Jane books and you learn how to read it by yourself. You would sit closely to a clever student and you repeat what she read. That moment, you knew what efforts means.

Remember when you're in standard 3? You always get top 10 in class when you were in standard 1 and 2 and suddenly you become top 20 in standard 3. You don't get the attention that you want in class because I am not the 'smart student' and I was a bit naughty and playful.

What do you do? You believe in yourself that you can pass the 'PTS' exam (examination to skip standard 4) just to prove to myself that I am not that stupid. You pray everyday and you be patient of everyday routine. And you pass the exam when you did not really expected it. That moment, you knew what determination means.

Remember when you were in standard 6? You were very bad in math because you could not understand the concept of multiplication and division. You always could not answer the prompt question of 'sifir' from your teacher. Your math teacher, Puan Chang throw your book because you did not do your homework and she even called your parents for counselling? Boy, my mum was mad that time.

Am I that bad? But I was really lazy that time and unorganized. My schoolbag full of 'sampah'. The expectation from the family to score in UPSR is high as I am the "smart student".

What do you do? You become hardworking to do all of your math homework. I did score A's for math but I didn't score straight 5 A's. I've got 1 B which is Science. That moment, you knew what frustration means.

Apa aku merepek cerita zaman sekolah rendah ni?

Sebabnya I was tense with work and personal stuff. And I knew I will get through this phase. I have to go through this phase because that will make way for that awesome moment to come.

And the outcome of this phase is based on what I work and did through it. Work hard to make it right.

Last but not least.... You're Awesome! Yes, the one who read this crap of mine!

Hopeless Romantic

I will always be that hopeless romantic. I woke up this morning with this song in my head.

Slowly but surely....

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Hello. It's been awhile since I babbling here. Today, I just feel like pouring it out.

Yesterday, for the very first time I had meeting with bunch of 'mat salleh'. They are consultants and few of them are boses from another subsidiary. I just feel good about it, just joining the meeting. Because I always visualize in my career, I will sit in the meeting with bunch of multinational race. Poyo much? I know. Haha.

Random thought on social smokers. It is a norm to have smoking break during the meeting and I think they're having another set of meeting there. It is a norm for a female smokers to join for smoking break as well. But I still feel awkward when they asking me to join them. I still feel like a school girl who think smoking is bad for health regardless the gender.

Stop complaining. A reminder for myself. This and that and stuff. Stop it. If you don't like it, change. Be positive. The positive energy will help you to get get where you are. InshaAllah.

I still want to be a kick ass in my career. I still want to be that. I still want to be what I always imagined. And Alhamdullilah, slowly, Allah had show me the path and gave me experience that I always wanted. Even not in a big scale, but still. I am blessed and thankful for that.

Last but not least, Slowly but surely. I am on the right track.

Let's pray together for our success. Amin.

Why not?

I am blessed and thankful. Alhamdullilah.

Allah had send me people that I need the most in the time like this. You see, life is never easy. If it is easy, then we all going to heaven. Its a test. A test of faith. It was quoted from a very supportive and beautiful friend of mine.

Be happy whenever Allah test you. For that means He remember and watching over you. Don't be afraid of the test. It will make u close to Him. And remember, after every difficulties there will be relief. Be patient. As good things only happen to people with patient. InshaAllah.

Like yesterday, I met my previous boss in previous company where I work and as always, he gave me wise advise and thoughts. I couldn't be happier. I met a few of my ex-colleagues too. Sharing stories and thoughts make me realise things. It is like chicken soup for the soul. (Am I exaggerated?)

And how about that long break from blogging? I mean who am I kidding? This blog is like my baby. Beside this is not a commercial blog and this blog had written my journey through this life. I bet nobody give a damn about this little diary of mine. So, I dont see reason I should abandon my baby. Unless I have been extremely busy. =P

Until now.

Cheers!

Perempuan itu

Perempuan itu
Jiwanya lembut
Mudah mengalirkan air mata
Hatinya belum tentu orang mengerti.

Mudahnya untuk menempiaskan marah
Sukar untuk diam dan bersabar
Mudahnya hati terusik
Sukar untuk memujuk dirinya sendiri

Perempuan itu
Sedang cuba untuk menjadi yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk dirinya sendiri
Walau tiada siapa pun yang tahu

Alangkah indahnya sabar itu
Sungguhpun satu dunia menghalang
Alangkah nikmatnya kurniaan tuhan
Sungguhpun hati retak seribu

Hati ini merajuk
Membawa duka lara
Biarlah, jangan dipujuk
Tidak mahu lagi sengsara

I've been thinking to take a long break from blogging. I want to focus on myself on real life. Take care everyone. Wish you all a lovely day.

Cheers! :)

Love Life

Things keep on changing,
Everyday is a surprise,
That what makes life challenging,
To get up and rise.

You meet people along the way,
Some of them are nice,
Some of them are not,
And some of them stay in your heart.

Everything has a price,
Or you can roll the dice,
But it is the best to become wise,
Because one simply live and dies.

Cheers!

Orang Melayu

Orang melayu ni itu.
Orang melayu ni ini.
Cuba tengok bangsa lain.
Orang melayu tak macam tu.

Orang melayu suka kutuk orang melayu.
Orang melayu suka rasa dia lagi bagus dari orang melayu biasa.
Dia rasa dia melayu yang tak perangai melayu.
Apa kau melayu yang bagus sangat?

Ish. Rimaslah! Sibuk sangat canang orang melayu itu ini.
Kalau dah melayu, memang lah jadi orang melayu.
Takkan jadi orang putih pulak kan?

Aku pun melayu. Aku orang Islam. Dari kau sibuk cerita pasal perangai melayu itu ini, baik kau sibuk cerita pasal Islam. Lagi bagus dan manfaat. Islam takde istilah melayu.

Sekian.

Ayah's Birthday

Happy Birthday Ayah!

Thank you for being such a good role model. Without you, I won't be confident as I am today. Your advise is wise and you always there for the family. Have a great birthday!

Love,

Kak Wa

P/s - Yeah, melting ice cream cake for ayah. =P

Persistence

Persistence is the ability to maintain action regardless of your feelings. You press on even when you feel like quitting.

When you work on any big goal, your motivation will wax and wane like waves hitting the shore. Sometimes you’ll feel motivated; sometimes you won’t. But it’s not your motivation that will produce results — it’s your action. Persistence allows you to keep taking action even when you don’t feel motivated to do so, and therefore you keep accumulating results.

Persistence will ultimately provide its own motivation. If you simply keep taking action, you’ll eventually get results, and results can be very motivating.  

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Family + Friends = LOVE

Hello Monday.

I had a productive weekend as I spend the whole weekend socializing with friends and family. I read once, "manusia adalah makhluk sosial". I find the sentence funny. Lol. Ok. Maybe not that funny to you.

1. I spend my friday night with my bff back in UTM. Yeah, it's been awhile. Kalau girlfriend tak gaduh, tak bestfriend namanya. :P I love you Nadia. Muah! Thanks for the treat. ;)

2. Wedding on Saturday. It was my cousin's wedding on my father's family side and the whole family were there. The wheather was nice and the wedding went well. Later that night, we went to i-city while the guys went to watched football in stadium.

3. Sunday with my dearest Keyra. We went to Mukha to experience the food and ambience. I found it to be ordinary. The food did not have 'wow' factor and the service, erm, let just say, they're not really friendly as I expected them to be. Later we watched OZ The great and powerful.

Lastly, my current paperwall. Love it. White flat is my new obsession.

Ok. See you next time.

Cats and Unicorn

Suddenly, tonight, it all make sense to me. Dream hard. Work hard. Play hard. Anyway, this song stuck in my mind.

Goodnight all. =D

Rage di pagi hari

Good Morning!

Pagi-pagi dah rasa annoyed. Sabar je lah. Below is the list of things I easily annoyed.

1. Buang tisu dalam tandas. Like seriously babe?! Come on! I know you're hygiene because you wipe after you finish your 'business'. But throw it inside the toilet bowl? NOT COOL. Plus it is really annoying for the next person who use the toilet (which is me in this case). Use the dustbin provided lah.

2. Slow car in the right lane. Need I to explain it more?

3. Did not use signal when changing lane. I know you're a skilled driver and you're aware of car beside and behind you. But using signal is one of the way of being courtesy. Kita kan rakyat bersopan santun.

Ok. So far itu je. Pagi Jumaat ni tak elok nak rage bagai. Haha.

Have a nice day!

Survival Rules

Geez, hateness! Get out from my system already! Stop messing up! And I won't blow up my anger just because, well, I have class.

Anyway, Astro had been played several time of Zombieland and I watch the movie like 3 times already recently. I just love Emma Stone. She's my kind of girl. Brunette or blonde, she is just nail it!

 My favourite scene in Zombieland.

Her eyes and her bangs, scored!

I choose not to give up

Demi sesungguhnya! Kami akan menguji kamu dengan sedikit perasaan takut (kepada musuh) dan (dengan merasai) kelaparan, dan (dengan berlakunya) kekurangan dari harta benda dan jiwa serta hasil tanaman. Dan berilah khabar gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar. (Al-Baqarah 21:55)

Wahai anak-anakku! Pergilah dan intiplah khabar berita mengenai Yusuf dan saudaranya (Bunyamin), dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat serta pertolongan Allah. Sesungguhnya tidak berputus asa dari rahmat dan pertolongan Allah itu melainkan kaum yang kafir". (Yusuf 12:87)

Reminder to self.
1. Tidak putus asa dari rahmat dan pertolongan Allah.
2. Khabar gembira untuk orang yang sabar.

Please be good, self.

I feel like I am at the lowest point in my life. Life throwing me rock and stones, but I didn't fight back. I just sit there and crying in pain and feeling sorry for myself.

I should get up and run. Or get up and scream and throwing stones back at life. But I didn't.

I just coil up in my own shell and I don't want to think of anything.

I know it is not a wise thing to do. No one can save me up unless myself. No one.

I don't know whether to give up or try harder. It could be because I never try enough.

Excuse me for being pessimist and negative today. I feel loss. I don't have the courage and can't find the reason.

Take Care.

You so Handsome!

"How can you fall in love with me? I mean, we are totally opposite. We have different personality. But why do you love me at the first place?"

"Because you're irresistible."

It was last night conversation with him. Happy birthday my darling! You're 25 and awesome! =D

You make my laugh a little louder,

You make my smile a little brighter,

And you make my life a little better.

ILYSM! Muach!

P/s - Sorry for not being able to celebrate your birthday today. Beside, this year's February do not have the 29th! :P I promise we'll celebrate once we meet up, ok, love?

Schmile

When disappointment fills your heart

And doubt invades your mind,

Count your many blessings

And hopefully, you’ll find

That even when your heart aches,

God’s hand is on your life;

He walks with you in good times,

He carries you through strife.

I know this time is trying

And I’ll pray for you today,

But I hope you will remember

That God can make a way  

I am not sure who wrote this poem. This my favourite poem whenever I was down. The first time I read this when I was 16, I bought the poem poster in Popular bookstore. Until now, the poem seem applicable.   Love, xoxo

A little note.....

It's been tough in the beginning of the week. My monday was at the 'bluest' where someone provoking me, received speed trap police summon (the first ever since I drive Jenny 2 years ago), received insurance lapse payment (my agent said it was not lapse earlier before), sudden flu and heard the rumors of my manager is resigning.

And today, I cannot do my work due to network problem and it only happen at my work station. I cannot access to my email, system and internet (when I wrote this, I am at extra PC but have no connection to system either, only internet, boohoo). Everyone else have no problem with their network, PC, except me. Sedih la rasa.

Despite the 'mild' sadness and uncomfortable situation, I believe God is up to something. Something beautiful, InshaAllah.

Lucky I have the best support system ever. Thank you love and family. And thank you Allah.

xxx

Coffee in USA and Tea in London

Coffee or Tea?

I love coffee. But I love tea too. Tea is my first love and my favorite is peppermint tea. Until I get to know coffee. Coffee had made me swept away. I am now addicted to it. Bad coffee!

I love premium coffee. And of course I love premium tea too. Because whenever I enjoy premium tea, I feel like I am having afternoon tea with the Queen of England at the Buckingham Palace, London. I will wear that well-tailored navy blue dress with a big hat.

 I was almost meet the Queen when I was 5 years old. Haha.

 What am I looking at? Checkin' them boys? (I am kidding!)

I remember choosing specifically this blue-dress-queen over others when my mum said pick only one queen to take picture with.

But when I enjoy premium coffee, I feel like I am living the American dream, having a laid back lifestyle. In Hollywood or New York city, the place where dream are made off.

I was 9 and I don't understand Hollywood during that time.

At Disneyland, LA. 

Aww... What a happy kid I have been. I wonder if I can I provide the same to my kids. InshaAllah. Thanks mum and dad for all the love you showered us.

The reality is I am here. At home. By drinking coffee or tea, my imagination will take me away to those places. The point is I love. Coffee. And. Tea. Don't make me choose!

P/s - My first intention is to talk about the goodness of coffee. Then I realized I love tea too. It wont be fair to tea if I had talk about coffee! Then suddenly, I remember travelling overseas during my kids day. Because tea remind me of royal london and coffee is like chasing American dream. And I terasa rajin pulak nak scan gambar. Heh.

Goodnight love!

Muach.

Why I love you?

The girl who understands just how much she is wanted is a girl who can be fully confident-empowered to make every decision a wise one, because she knows her decisions matter. A girl who knows that she is priceless, is a girl who will never settle for anything short of the best from the one who loves her the most. A girl who is sure that she is cherished and adored is a girl who no longer worries about herself; her focus is on sharing this radical love with all those she comes in contact with. You can be that girl.

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ILY. I really do. Thank you for all these years, for reminding me not to be afraid and who always be shining guide. ILY.

Love,
Me.

Dinner Date

Hello!

Monday is coming and it is time to get serious. I had enjoy last week since the traffic is clear and my boss is not around and I had been playful. Tomorrow will be back to normal. Boo-hoo!

Anyway, I had enjoy my weekend. Had a nice dinner with my besties at Chilis. So far, I think Chilis had the best steak compare to TGI and Victoria Station. Tony Roma's will be next on the list. ;P

I am thankful for having awesome friends around me and this particular sweetheart of mine is just my favorite! I love her very much and she really remind me of Fazura. Beautiful and kind. Thanks Keyra for the birthday treat!

Not to forget my other besties, Kamalia and Ainor for joining the dinner. Love both of you too. ;)

 Medium raw. I prefer medium well. I am sure my partner will love this one the most.

 10 years of friendship....and counting! Hugs!

Aww.. Looks who's got the birthday kiss!

Stolen from her instagram. *wink*

Ok people. Have a nice week ahead. Assalamualaikum!

Random Questions

Dah lama tak buat jawab random question macam ni. Dah takde siapa nak interview kita ni kan....., so kita interview jelah diri sendiri. Ok?

What is your favorite cereal?
Koko Crunch & Froot Loop

What kind/brand of deodorant do you use?
Spray type - Nivea. I prefer nivea than rexona.

What is your favorite mythical creature?
Fairies! Do I need to explain more? :P

How do you eat your eggs?
With hot nasi putih plus kicap. Sedap giler kot. Haha.

What would you do if you were the opposite sex for a day?
Wooing the girl! I just wanted to know how does it feel and I want to see the girl's reaction.

What is the nerdiest thing you do in your spare time?
Googling about ancient/country/inventor history and read them and I'll be like "aww", "really", "wow" and forget about what I read after the next 10 minutes!

Do you face the showerhead or away from it while showering?
Face away. Only after the final part of showering, I will face the showerhead. Entah kenapa begitu. It's like a shower routine.

What is the oldest thing in your refrigerator?
Ermm.... Not sure. Hehe.

What is your favorite breed of cat?
All cats are cute. Alhough persian cat are adorable, but kucing kampung had it own charm.

How are your survival skills?
InshaAllah ok. I always precautious when I am alone - driving, at home, flying, swimming, etc. I always imagine what the worst could happen and plan the emergency exit/action in mind by looking things surround me.

Do you prefer chips or cakes?
Oooh, tough! Chips is something that I crave for but cakes always makes me happy!

Can you play any instruments?
Sadly no.

What is the most overrated exercise in your opinion?
Pilates? Or it is because I found it sexy but I dont have the chance to try it.

Do you prefer waffles or pancakes?
Waffles! I can enjot it anytime. Pancake is more to breakfast to me.

What is the grossest thing you've ever eaten?
Non fresh seafood like mussels, clamp, fish. Erghh!

Do you prefer breakfast or dinner?
Breakfast definately! I really enjoy the feeling of the first meal I eat after waking up with sunshine and eating with loved one. Heaven!

xoxo

Keep Calm

Wise men, when in doubt whether to speak or to keep quiet, give themselves the benefit of the doubt, and remain silent.

Napeleon Hill

Birthday

Assalam and hello good people!

Alhamdullilah. I feel blessed and thankful for this life. My chinese new year holiday was superb and today is my birthday!

Happy Birthday 26th Nazurah! Tak salah kan nak wish diri sendiri. ;P

The family had celebrate my birthday earlier before. Thank you to my sisters, aunties and especially my mum that make it happen. Love you the most!

I just feel overwhelmed by the wishes from friends and family. Thank you so much. :,)

I am outta word to say. May Allah bless us all. I love you people! Muach!

P/s - Thank you to you too love. You know who you are. :)

I am a Happy Queen!

Sugar Rush

Hello! Quick update.

1. Last weekend was super awesome. Got to to hang out with my favourite besties from school, attend one of my friend's wedding and watching movies with my buddies.

2. Had a good time with my mum and siblings too! We went for a little window shopping.

3. My monday at its best because my very first project here had been approved by the big boss. Phew~

4. I am kinda okay with the traffic nowadays. Traffic jammed is something I can handle. Haha.

5. Mood diet ke laut! Need to be on track again. Lately, my company keep on organizing makan-makan event, officially or non officially.

6. I met a nice girl as my insurance agent. I decided to switch my agent to her just because I feel connected from the first time we met. Aww...

7. I love my besties so much.

8. And ofcourse, I love my family the most!

Okay. See you later alligator!

Close to you

Sometime I feel it is impossible
But most of the time I feel it is possible
Sometime I feel mad because of the distance
While most of the time I feel the patient resistance

I am happy on my own
But I am happier with you
You're like ice cream on cone
The best dessert for anyhoo

You're like a shining glitter
You're always there when I'm bitter
You're like a comfort shoes
Protecting me from wounds

I miss you. I really do.

xxx

Differences Should Not Be Bitter

The difference between you and me
It's not experience
Or knowledge
The difference between you and me
Is just a little something
Call 'attitude'

You can be pessimist
Or negative
You can be whatever you want
But it wont affect me

You can hate me
Or dislike me
I will treat you equally
The same like before

The difference between you and me
It's not age
Or education level
The difference between you and me
I am just as awesome
And oh... you're not?

*Sorry if I sound so full of myself. It just some random thing happen to me. And this is definitely not about family, my loved one and my close friends. Because those people are awesome!

Muach!

Goodnight!

Angel Gold

Hello!

Happy end-of-short-holiday. My search for perfect perfume is finally end. And the winner is ....... Victoria's Secret perfume, Angel Gold! My first choice is actually Versace, Bright Crystal but I end up buying VS. Well, maybe because VS is slightly cheaper where I can get additional lotion with the price of versace. Hehe.

vs

I am a happy girl now! Ok. Secondly, mom treat us Seoul Garden for lunch. It is actually advance birthday present for me. A little too early? I know! But this is the only time that the whole family is here since Nedi has to go back to UTM next week.

Mum also brought me advance birthday present, which is kain lace. A beautiful one. :) Thanks mama.

I had a wonderful weekend. Hope yours too. Back to reality, tomorrow will. :) Ok. Assalammualaikum!

Slow Down In Space Dementia

Ok. This will be a super-serious-melancholic post.

I feel like the world is spinning so fast. I want this. I want that. The desire burning until I feel a headache. Yes. I can be crazy like that sometime.

Slow down. Take a deep breath.

I don't know why, but today I feel missing something, but nothing in specific. I feel like I miss everyone that had touched my heart throughout my whole life, from year to year. I feel floating in my own timeline dimension, wondering what's next, reminiscing the past and enjoying the present moment.

I need a grip. To make me stay on the ground. I did found the inner peace inside of me but usually it wont stay for long. It always come back wandering in that time dimension of mine.

I guess I just have too much estrogen.

Well, sometime I wish I am a man who ride that sexy superbike while others stuck in traffic jammed. Ok. (Yang ni memang random. Takde kena mengena dengan post di atas.)

Have a nice evening.

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Doa Rajin Solat

Hello!

It's been awhile! I've started being busy again with new work and stuff. My play time for fmsphotoaday pun dah terbuat since I tak sempat nak focus and all that. But, I did post a few in my instagram. ;)

Anyway, I nak share something interesting (at least to me) on doa for prayers. I've got this from my friend's FB and he shared a story of a woman giving on tips on how to make your children pray on their own. She practice the doa since before she were married and her children now did their prayer on their own without reminders and quarrel.

I am on stage on improving my relationship with our creator, the All Mighty Allah. I always adore how my parents always emphasize on their prayers and also any muslim who take their prayer seriously.

Hopefully, we will not be careless on our prayer time after this. Just a gentle reminder for myself and all my friends.

Morning Blues

Dear Self,

Remember 3 years ago, you were dissapointed you didn't get the job that you wanted after 3-stage-of-interview? You were so sad and you thought you're not good enough. After that you get even better offer at other company.

Well.... The cycle happen again this time. I finally received official email from the company that I always aim for and sadly I was rejected. And, like before, I feel like I am not good enough.

Allah know what's best. Trust Him. Believe Him.

Just work hard, be sincere, be humble. People can bring you down, but that only mean you're above them. I am worth more than an argument and hateness. I know I am better than that.

Ikut resam padi, makin berisi, makin tunduk. I always need to remind myself about that.

Have a great Thursday everyone! :)

Dream Away

A reminder for myself... Because I feel like 'it is just a dream'.

I want to make my dreams come true.

And you're a part of my dreams. The big chuck one.

Little Talks

Day 10 - One O'clock

Waiting for elevator to go to lunch.

Boring picture? I know. Will try to capture a better one tomorrow ey. And, I found this song.. Definitely love at the first heard. With a husky/sexy girl voice, beautiful lyrics, what more can I ask for in a song?

Silence is easy

Day 09 - Paper.

current reading at my sanctuary bed. 

T is for Tuesday

Today's prompt, Day 8 - Something beginning with 'T'.

I had capture random stuff that start from T which are:

1. Toyota Camry
2. Toyota Prius
3. Tropicana Mall
4. Teddy Bear
5. Traffic

But in the end, I choose the photo below. I don't thought about this when I am searching for stuff-begin-with-letter-T before.

T is for Toll Gate at The Highway!

Trust in Allah

You cannot force people to love you, nor make them stay close to you. You can love them, respect them, and hope they come back.

Allah is in full control. Nothing happens without his permission, and not a leaf falls, but he has a clear record. Truly if Allah wills, it will happen.

:) Chill, ok?

Let's Play!

Hope it's not too late to play this photo game.

Photo A Day

Today, my first trial. 7th - Street. This is the street that I see every morning before I go to work and it greet me when I come back home in the evening.

Have a pleasant evening!

Okay & Fine

I am ok. I am fine.
Everything is terrific,
And simply divine.

I am ok. I am fine.
Even my heart ache,
But I won't whine.

I accept the loneliness,
With an open heart,
I accept the dullness,
Without a blackheart.

I am ok. I am fine.
I keep telling myself this,
I am my own sunshine.

P/s - Everything will be alright. Everything will be fine. :)

Broga Hill

It was unplanned activity actually. Last night, my friend message me whether or not to join them to Broga Hill. It will be a 'yes' fro me since I always wanted to experience Broga. Plus, I wanted to do some exercise and this will be an advantage.

That morning, we went out a bit late at 5.45 am. We plan to go at 4.30 am. But Azzah and Fafa insist to go even its late and I just follow them (dengan tak mandinya :P). We arrived there on 6.20 am. It is a good experience for me. Mengah jugak la nak naik atas. But its all feel worth it when arrived at the peak.

Sebenarnya tak pergi sampai pucak yang satu lagi. Sebab I was unprepared, without drinking water and etc. So, nak continue dah tak larat. Lagipun matahari dah terbit. Next time boleh pergi lagi. :)

Saturday Sweater

Lazy Bum!

I spent most of my saturday sleeping. I seems like enjoying it. Tak healthy langsung! And I also did not watch my diet today. I ate a lot of snacks. :(

I was not in the mood today. My mum ask me to go out with her to Tesco. I was so lazy even to get up. Lastly, I ask my sisters to accompany her. I feel bad for not following her. She even bought me a shawl that I wanted. Mama always know how to persuade me. And makes me feel guilty.

Anyway, I am excited to have a new wardrobe. I donate 40% of my clothes to orphanage last 2 weeks. It surely feel good because

1. Let go of beloved clothes since college. (Some of them are worn like 2-3 times only).
2. Make space for my closet.
3. My first time and it felt awesome to donate something to charity.

But for sure, new wardrobe is not in the nearest time from now. I have to accomplish my mission to fit in size M and saving money to settle my debts. But, being a lady, it will not hurt to window shopping and check out looks that will suit my style. I check out Jelita magazine this month, and I saw the style that I really like.

Then,  while browsing my instagram, I come to happen to check out Yuna's shop. Bingo! That's it! It surely satisfy me, even I don't purchase them yet? :P

sama kan macam magazine tu?

Lovely! 

Love the top!

Love the style of I am Jetfuel Shop! Goodnight and Assalammualaikum! :)