End of Ramadhan

Hallo.

Esok balik. Yess! Tapi malas nak pack. Oh, saya berjaya kurangkan 3kg. Namun, untuk mencapai target 55kg, haruslah kurangkan lagi 2kg.

Perut dah flat sikit. Rasa lebih 'confident' dari biasa. Nafsu makan pun dah kurang. Makan pun selalu tak habis. (Ni dah masuk amalan syaiton iaitu pembaziran). Sahur roti je. Kadang2 kuih baki buka malam sebelumnya.

Saya rasa lebih tenang. Mungkin sebab dah lepas beberapa perkara. Alhamdullilah, InsyaAllah raya tahun ni dapat bagi duit raya besar sikit untuk family. tapi dalam hati bankrupt. Yang penting ikhlas.. Hehe..

Tiba-tiba teringat peristiwa time belajar dulu. Asal cuti je, bil telefon rumah mesti double shoot up. Lepas tu ayah mesti mengamuk gile. Mengamuk sampai hempas meja and jerit-jerit. Lepas tu dalam hati, I mesti cakap, alah, setakat 2-3ratus pun nak bising. Bukan sampai seribu pun. Bila dah kerja ni baru faham and terfikir. Besar sebenarnya 2-3ratus tu. Time belajar, sedap je shopping 2-300. Time kerja, sedap gak belanja, cuma ada terdetik dalam hati macam berkira nak spend duit banyak2 macam ni.

Bila fikir balik, I ni dikira bertuah. Belajar parents fully sponsored. Tak payah nak bayar pinjaman PT, etc. Family I sederhana je. Kereta pun parents support time belajar. Bila dah kerja support lagi downpayment untuk kereta baru. I owe my parents that much. Bila dah kerja ni, diri sendiri je mampu tanggung.

It makes me wonder... Bila dah kerja, jangan selfish sangat dengan wang ringgit. Memang lah dapat kerja bagus atas usaha sendiri. Tapi sebenarnya, secretly, parents kita sentiasa doakan kita.

Semakin dewasa, semakin rasa sayang parents. Pelik. Tapi benar.

Ini merupakan entry yang tersangatlah down. Lebih baik jangan baca.

Harini dari pagi sampai lah ke malam, sedih je rasa hati. I feel so lonely inside. Dekat luar, I pretend laughing with friends here but deep inside menangis.

I hate the fact that I am that manja and gedik who love need attention. I dont want all the attention in the world, enough with my close one. Sadly, I dont have that anyone here. Dont get me wrong, I do have a bestfriend here but ofcourse I am not her priority.

I hate the fact that I am that sensitive. Easily merajuk. And I just want a friend. Who will console me, love me no matter what, who know how to 'pujuk' me.

Bahahaha. Who are you Naz? Kenapa lak orang nak ambil hati kau? T_T

I feel so sad.. Menangis hujan.

ICC MPC East M'sia Region

Ok. Ini cerita dah basi. Tapi nak cerita gak.

It was unforgettable moment. Ish, taktau nak start kat mana lah. Hmm. Ok. Lets start with my company. Ok. I work with Proton Edar. Service Centre. Sibu. Sarawak. Yes. Sarawak. Proton is that daring transferring people. For good I guess.

That's not the point lah. So, in Edar, yearly they will organize ICC. ICC stands for Inovative Creative Circle. Its like for improvement in daily work to increase productivity, quality, etc. Some sort like Kaizen la macam tu. You have to come up with a problem in your department and find root causes and solution to the problem. Boring eh? To keep it short, we have to do paper work about our idea to the improvement of daily work process.

So each department will send a group and will compete with each other in respective region. The winner of a region will be competing with other company or organization in MPC Convenction. Dey, apehal gelabah sangat cerita MPC ni? Sebab group kitaorang menang ofcourse!! We received gold award. Muahaha. Plus, we're fresh group while most of the other group memang gempak giler ah. Yela, its their 4-5th time join MPC. Mana tak terror.

Plus the MPC Convenction for East M'sia Region was held in Kota Kinabalu. I love KK for its beautiful scenery and friendly people.

Yeay! Lets scroll for pictures. Dah lama tak upload pictures.

With Mag - the master 'paperwork'

Masa tengah present

Winning Team ;D


See you in the next entry. Next week balik raya. Best!

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Sepatutnya bila balik rumah, rewind and kumpul semangat nak balik kerja.

BUT I feel differently. Its the opposite.

Malas nak fikir hal kerja.

:(

Part of me that never die

When it come to love, I am a hopeless romantic. I like to imagine a fairy tale happy ending love story. As I grew wiser, I realise, life has never had it ends. It goes on. So, there is no such thing as happy ending. It continues..

I was a fat kid back then. So I never had a single boyfriend when I was in school. Baik sekolah rendah sampai sekolah menengah sampai la ke boarding school.

My imagination back then was like wow! I was a loner and imagination is the only thing can makes me happy. I was a social awkward. Not a miss popular. Not a sports person. I was a nerd. A real fat nerd. But thank God I survive school days. With flying colors lagi. But then wasn't that rainbow lah.. LOL!

I was a trouble kid when I was 8-10 years old. I still remember the school's headmaster calling my parents and advise them to pay more attention to me and spend more time with me. Apa lagi, balik tu my mum mengamuk gila lah. Lucky my dad confront my mum. But I did not really understand what it means during that time. All I remember is I was lazy to do my school work and homework. My school bag penuh sampah and I dont really care what the teachers' teach at school. Surprisingly, boleh pulak I pass PTS and lompat darjah 5. Pelik. I was not a smart kid. Selalu pun dapat nombor belas-belas je dalam class, jarang top 10. Sekali dua je kot dapat no 3. Since then, semua orang ingat I budak pandai.

Jauh pulak I cerita ye..

When I was a kid, all my life is my parents. Sekarang pun ye jugak, tapi masa kecik-kecik rasa my whole life is my parents. That's why I superr love attention from them. I don't give a damn if other people ignore me or hate me. As long as my parents love me, I've the world. Tapi biasala kan, masa kecik-kecik selalu kena marah bagai. Time tu rasa nak lari dari rumah la, apela.. Haha.. Now dah besar, rasa macam nak jadi budak kecik je sampai bila-bila..

What is my point this whole rambling?

The point is nothing. I was bored and feeling lonely. And my wild imagination came back visiting me. Sebab tu teringat time kecik-kecik dulu..

I miss a pure and sincere heart of a child.

Imagination... can be a bestfriend that cheer you and pick you up.

:)

Wait for it

A year here is almost over.

Im waiting for good news soon.

I will get back my life.

I WILL.

Google Search, Sibu & Him

Stupidity.

Me : You tahu tak sekarang Sibu dah famous? Bila I google terus keluar pasal Sibu. Kalau dulu I google, mesti search keluar Sibu Island. Kalau nak search Sibu, kena type Sibu Sarawak. Sekarang dah tak..

Him : Oh ye ke... Tapi kalau I cakap something takut you marah.. (sambil muka senyum dan pegang tangan)

Me : Apa dia? Kenapa I nak marah pulak?

Him : Sebab you search dekat Sarawak, mestilah result search Sibu banyak keluar. Google boleh detect location. Page dia appear tempat paling dekat dengan location you.

Me : .............. oh yeke.. erm... tapi sibu memang dah famous (padahal dalam hati malu gileee).

No wonder bila I search dekat rumah, Sibu Island yang appear instead Sibu Sarawak.

I feel stupid. Really. T_T