Ruled By Secrecy

I love muse. Sangat suka. Suka. Suka. Suka. Sadly, I takde lagi full album of the resistance.

It all started when I was in form 4. Sebelum tuh asek layan punk rock je. But a friend of mine introduce me to muse, and since that, i never fell out of love with them.

Anyway, dah lama tak dengar muse. Dulu kalau sehari tak dengar, tak sah! Sekarang dah sah. Haha. Lame joke!

Benci esok kena jumpa supervisor for psm.

Benci tak dapat jumpa mr sunshine tonight.

Benci esok ade quiz pagi2.

Benci sebab takde mood.

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I hate it when I feel I haven't achieve anything that I could be proud of.

Have you ever felt this way?

Avatar Yourself

I found this out when i was facebook-ing last night. It is quite interesting to me. Well, if you got nothing to do, go and avatar yourself.

Go to facebook and become a fan of this page,

"IF I WERE IN AVATAR.. I WOULD LOOK LIKE THIS..."

Then, u'll be the next cast for the next avatar series. Here's mine.

Scary huh?

Website value

Haha. If I can get that amount of $$, first thing I'll do is shopping! This thing cheer me up somehow even it is not really mean a thing. Im so dumb about technology. Kill me! I'll blog for fun. Just to express my feeling. I know i could manipulate this internet stuff into money, but, i told you. Im old skool girl. Im very simple minded when it comes to tech. And too lazy to find out about it. And bla...bla...bla...

Anyway, I know about this stuff from a friend of friend of mine. Check out his blog. He sure got a lot of thing to say. www.carlsamsudin.blogspot.com

Then again, I dont know how to just using his name and link directly. Pergh. Nak cakap banyak tentang ke-bengong-an diri pon tak best lah. Malu taw!

Oklah. See you in the next enty!

What a week~ phew!

Last week was super awesome!! I havent update for a week and now its pay back time!

1. My Birthday Celebration

I think this year's birthday was the best (so far). Its a complete package because i celebrate it with my love and also my family, even it is not on the same day.

I have told you before, how good amir was in surprises, right? He still is!! On my birthday, we went out and have lunch together. And he keep on telling me that I'm not gonna get anything this year. I thought it was a joke at first, because he said that on the day before. But on my birthday he still say the same thing and I didnt see anything at the back of his car. (gile mengada expect b'day present dr bf, so wat? u too, rite?)

Then, to make thing worst, my phone broke down because I accidently sit on it. Apa lagi, menangisla. Dahla fon rosak, tak dapat present plak, dang! Rase macam malang je. And my love suddenly jadi baik offer pinjam hp dia (aww, that's sweet, well, at least for me!)

Anddddddddddddd.....this is the best part, he send me a text saying happy birthday and ask me to look at the back of the car seat. YEAYYYY!!!!!!!!!! Gila happy! I saw a big package and rase malu sorank2 cuz I really thought he didnt get me anything and being stingy. It was a sheriff woody from toy story. Gile comel, ok. I really love it. And he never missed giving me a rose. Love you!

Next day dapat prezzie lagi. It was a heart shape pillow with another rose. He spoiled me too much! But, who cares, Im the happiest person on earth!

2. Karoake with ucu, uncle alak and the kids

Aah... Ni pun best jugak. Im supposed to get on the bus to go home that 14th night. My aunt had this idea of celebrating my birthday singing karoke. Man, I really enjoyed myself. And so do my other cuzzie. Baru je belajar karaoke, and dah jadi kemaruk pulak. It was great and I went back to shah alam with a big smile on my face (even Im tired inside)

3. Family dinner at Putrajaya

On monday night, the whole family went to Putrajaya. But, that place right now tengah renovate, so, it wasnt really a good time to visit there. We went to Alamanda and then perform maghrib prayer in Masjid and lastly have dinner there. Its really good to be home!

I've got a handbag from my dad (thanx ayah, i really love u!) and also a punjabi dress from my mum (i love u even more mama!) Oh, my sisters gave a clutch, bracelet and cow handpone holder.

3. Mini holiday in Melaka

Yeah, i say it was mini because it is only for a night. We take a ride on the menara taming sari and also the boat ride. Sangat best because the whole family getting together. :) We stay a night in Tangkak before sending nedy back to matriculation.

But right now, back to reality. Plenty of works to be done. Ouch. I wish my birthday is everyday.....

Im pretty lazy to upload the picca. Later I'll post some, ok.

Happy Birthday!!

Yeay. Its my birthday today! Im a big TWENTY THREE today! Gosh! When I was a kid, I always wondered how does it feel being 23. Now, here I am!

Im thankful for my blessed life. Alhamdullilah.

Im still in JB even though its short semester break. My mum dah bising why I didnt straight away go back home. Well, the reason is, I want to share my birthday with my dearie hunnyB! Actually, it is more to wait for him celebrating my birthday today. Haha. *evil laugh*

I want to be better in the future. I want to appreaciate my friends more. Sometimes I've been negleting or ignoring them. But, after this, I'll spend some time for them. I'll appreaciate each of them. =)

Thank you dearie friends that wishes my birthday. Lotza ♥!! xoxo!!

Big Girl

I've got a lot of thoughts in my mind right now but it is kinda of hard to express it.

I hate myself today. I hate myself for being weak. I hate myself because I rely on others to make me happy. I hate myself because Im not strong and easily broke into tears. I hate myself for not having a hard-as-stone-heart.

It just a simple thing actually. But it really disturbed me until I feel so negative. Im trying, but maybe not hard enough. Give me some time. Dont push me around. I know sometime people dont really mean what they said, or it just their thoughts, it is not something they mean to hurt me. But I do get hurts when they talk about that specific things.

I have to break this cycle. I have to. But its f***ing hard.

Im beautiful even I've gained weight. Ada apa2 masalah?

I put pleasure before work

Yes. I really do. In fact, thats my recipe for success. Haha. Kidding! Banyaknya kerja nak kena hantar before cny holiday. Yet my mind keep on thinking about holidays. Urgh!

So, today was a happy day for me. I crave over sushi king since early of the semester, but I just fullfilled it today. Went to Jusco Taman U with my classmates and then off to karaoke. Im not a big fan of karaoke before, but today, it change my perception about it. I did enjoy singing out loud. Haha. Plus with a bunch of wacky friends, kiosk!

So, tonight, I will be doing all my assignments! Ok. Wish me luck! I need it!

Lomo "magic camera"

Last night, I went for late supper with Amir and suddenly, we had the conversation about polaroid camera. When I was a kid, I was fascinated with polaroid. I think it was a "magic camera" (i still do now). How fast technology swap away film camera with digital one.

Masa kecik2 dulu ada smartshop jual polaroid. Ala, smartshop tu jual barang kat TV. Pergh. Time tuh rasa nak call je number kat skrin TV nak beli camera tuh. Huhu. Tapi takut kena marah dgn ayah, so, hanya mampu berangan je la.

Tadi, I browse around the net, and I baru found out bout lomo camera. Im not a camera nerd, so my knowledge about camera is zero. But I do know I have fallin in love with those babies. I think banyak je kat web lain jual mende alah ni. But, I taw yang ni je. Tak salah kat +wondermilk pun ada gak. Call me late, tapi I mmg baru tahu. ;)

Banyak jenis camera ni, tapi Im not even an amatur, nanti cakap takut salah. Tapi semua pun cute!! Aaaaaaaa.......................................

Sungguh comel.. saya nak...

Ini pun sama....

keychain camera

Polaroid, plg saya nak!!

So, people, korank check sendirila kat website dia. http://kawaii-store.blogspot.com/Semua pun comel. Harga pun ok la.

p/s- teringat pulak rancangan globo loco, gameshow budak2. hee~

Saturday Noon

Nobody tag me. But, Im shamelessly taken this from a friend of mine. Suddenly in the mood of answering questions.

1) Where is your cell phone?
Atas katil.

2) Relationship?
A proud gf of Amir Asyraf Janorin. :)

3) Your hair?
Copper. Copper. Balik2 copper. Mama cakap mcm org asli, but I couldnt care less!

4) Work?
Soon! InsyaAllah.

5) Your sisters?
Heart them all. Selalu gadoh. Tapi last2 baik balik.

6) Your favorite thing?
Tade favorite. Sume suke. Ngeh~

7) Your dream last night?
Cant recall.

8) Your favorite drink?
Coolblog choc milkshake. Samok!!

9) Your dream car?
Still and always be, Volkswagen New Beetle.

10) Your shoes?
Tak penah beli more than RM50. Beli time sale je. Ye, Im a thrift hunter!

11) Your fears?
Sesat dalam hutan sorang2.

12) What do you want to be in 10 years?
A wife, mum and own lotsa moo-lah!! Pakcik kayo!!

13) Who did you hang out with last weekend?
With my ucu n her kids n atok.

14) What are you not good at?
Technical stuff. I hate numbers!!!

15) One of your wish list items?
Smart black leather jacket or blazer. Saya gemok. Susa nak cr yg smart. Ade pun, tade dwet! :(

16) Where you grew up?
Subang Jaya and Shah Alam

17) Last thing you did?
Mandi
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18) What are you wearing?
Blue dress with white flower and faded jeans.

19) What aren’t you wearing?
All my bling2. Nak keluar la baru pakai.

20) Your pet?
Tade

21) Your computer?
Dell Inspiron in Red. Sgt suke red!

22) Your life?
A bless. Looking foward to do better! InsyaAllah.

23) Missing?
Home sweet home

24) What are you thinking about right now?
Pukul bape ni nak balik ruma atok.

25) Your car?
Silver Kelisa. Tp kdg2 rs tamak nak kete lg bes. Ish!

26) Your kitchen?
Erk. Kat rumah la.

27) Your favorite color?
RED, white, pastels.

28) Last time you laughed?
When I wake up. A phone call from my mama. (Gedik kan?)

29) Last time you cried?
Last night. Kememe betul!

30) Love?
My comfort zone. :)

Okay peeps. Im off to my atok's place. Tulu~

Forest Gump

Jenny : "Why you're so good to me?"

Forest : "You're my girl"

Jenny : "I'll always be your girl."

Bloody Monday

Step 1

Step 2

Step 3

Step 4, bekfes kat oldtown

Isnin kali ini penuh dengan ups and downs.

Up : Bangun pagi berasa sangat uplifted, gembira, bersemangat!

Down : Tayar kereta pancit, ponteng pergi kelas.

Up : Amir help me fixing the tyre. I feel like damsel in disstress. Feel so damn happy and touched. We had breakfast togther and had a nice chat.

Down : Had a fight with him in the evening over other's fault.

Up : Had been shorlisted to attend second interview session in JB. Alhamdullilah. (But this something that are not sure yet)

Down : Had a long walk to DSI and sweat all over.

Up : A cheerful phonecall from my mum and dad

Down : PSM thesis, tests, assignment, bla, bla, bla....

Kesimpulannya, hidup umpama roda. sekejap atas. sekejap bawah.