Marketing Girl

Hello.

So, I had to travel to KK for work. Its been awhile since my last work related trip outstation. I think this is what I need to get me back focus on my work. Looks like I had not really focus and this trip will be the inspiration to move forward in my career.

Lots of learning despite I am excited riding that airplane to KK. :)

I can see from the people face and reaction knowing that I am flying solo representing my company for work, they're surprised (or maybe impressed) seeing a malay lady with tudung doing marketing. Ok, mungkin perasan, but hey, I need this to boost my confidence and self esteem to survive in this line.

Honestly, I am kinda feeling down with my work. I feel small. I cannot give up. I have go that far. It will be ashemd if I quit just because of some self confident issue. It just the evil voice that bringing me down.

I learn that, it is okay if you dont know everything and you cant do everything. Everyone is also learning and struggling. It just they are good at hiding it. Like a duck pedalling in the lake.

So, the first day, I learn that I should learn how to talk to everyone, to all level. From the managers to the uncle. From the social people to the most quiet one. Just say hello and be genuine. Listen to their stories and show some enthusiatic.

Also, be confident of what you're going to say. Sell yourself.

That night, I was having dinner by myself. I feel completely content. Like I am fully in charge of myself. Like I am in love with my own self, which is essential because you must love yourself firts before someone else.

The next day, I was greeted by a man who travelling from work as well. Very friendly and he asked me if Im travelling here that often. He's from Sime Darby anyway. We had a nice chat even it is short.

You see, meeting new people can be fun. We never knew what we'll be expecting. I am going to share about health issue on my next post. That is one of the learning I got from this trip as well.

Bye!

Love will come along

She come and visit me again.

This time I can feel her present. The feeling, the sensation even clearer. She took me off wandering in the super highway of time and places. From the past to the present and future.

She's going even deeper, full of questions and doubts. She was afraid, that's for sure. I can feel it... Like a twin having a telepathy conversation. Like I have understand her the longest time. Like she was a part of me.

She told me that she didnt like herself now. How can she is not writing anymore? She used to be full of sunshine even when its cloudy. She said she feel like she's losing it. She is afraid of her new self. She didnt want to lose her old self either.

So, she sat there quietly.

Shhhhh.......

I dont know what to tell her. I dont know if we're still friends. I really dont. I forced myself to ignore her. But impossible to forget her. She influence my life largely.

Then I reaalised. I lose focus to myself. I put my energy to her instead.

Focus. Focus. Focus. Not for the fame. Not for pleasing people.

Focus to be the better version of yourself.

Remember at the end of your mind. Remember. Love will come along. Sure it will.

Love yourself.

Goodnight.