That awesome moment.....

Dear Self,

That awesome moment will come.

Remember when you were 6 years old? You change kindergarten from 'Tadika Abim' (an Islamic based syllabus when I was 5 yeras old) to 'Tadika Bistari' (English based syllabus)? You don't know how to read in English while all your classmate know how to read them. It was 'Ladybird' book series of 'Peter and Jane'. You English teacher, Ms Alice make you stand up in front of the class because you can't read. You feel ashamed and you hate teacher Alice with her long nails and pink nail polish.

What do you do? You ask your parents to buy Peter and Jane books and you learn how to read it by yourself. You would sit closely to a clever student and you repeat what she read. That moment, you knew what efforts means.

Remember when you're in standard 3? You always get top 10 in class when you were in standard 1 and 2 and suddenly you become top 20 in standard 3. You don't get the attention that you want in class because I am not the 'smart student' and I was a bit naughty and playful.

What do you do? You believe in yourself that you can pass the 'PTS' exam (examination to skip standard 4) just to prove to myself that I am not that stupid. You pray everyday and you be patient of everyday routine. And you pass the exam when you did not really expected it. That moment, you knew what determination means.

Remember when you were in standard 6? You were very bad in math because you could not understand the concept of multiplication and division. You always could not answer the prompt question of 'sifir' from your teacher. Your math teacher, Puan Chang throw your book because you did not do your homework and she even called your parents for counselling? Boy, my mum was mad that time.

Am I that bad? But I was really lazy that time and unorganized. My schoolbag full of 'sampah'. The expectation from the family to score in UPSR is high as I am the "smart student".

What do you do? You become hardworking to do all of your math homework. I did score A's for math but I didn't score straight 5 A's. I've got 1 B which is Science. That moment, you knew what frustration means.

Apa aku merepek cerita zaman sekolah rendah ni?

Sebabnya I was tense with work and personal stuff. And I knew I will get through this phase. I have to go through this phase because that will make way for that awesome moment to come.

And the outcome of this phase is based on what I work and did through it. Work hard to make it right.

Last but not least.... You're Awesome! Yes, the one who read this crap of mine!

Slowly but surely....

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Hello. It's been awhile since I babbling here. Today, I just feel like pouring it out.

Yesterday, for the very first time I had meeting with bunch of 'mat salleh'. They are consultants and few of them are boses from another subsidiary. I just feel good about it, just joining the meeting. Because I always visualize in my career, I will sit in the meeting with bunch of multinational race. Poyo much? I know. Haha.

Random thought on social smokers. It is a norm to have smoking break during the meeting and I think they're having another set of meeting there. It is a norm for a female smokers to join for smoking break as well. But I still feel awkward when they asking me to join them. I still feel like a school girl who think smoking is bad for health regardless the gender.

Stop complaining. A reminder for myself. This and that and stuff. Stop it. If you don't like it, change. Be positive. The positive energy will help you to get get where you are. InshaAllah.

I still want to be a kick ass in my career. I still want to be that. I still want to be what I always imagined. And Alhamdullilah, slowly, Allah had show me the path and gave me experience that I always wanted. Even not in a big scale, but still. I am blessed and thankful for that.

Last but not least, Slowly but surely. I am on the right track.

Let's pray together for our success. Amin.

Okay & Fine

I am ok. I am fine.
Everything is terrific,
And simply divine.

I am ok. I am fine.
Even my heart ache,
But I won't whine.

I accept the loneliness,
With an open heart,
I accept the dullness,
Without a blackheart.

I am ok. I am fine.
I keep telling myself this,
I am my own sunshine.

P/s - Everything will be alright. Everything will be fine. :)

On your mark, Get set, Go!

List of Challenge to break in 2013 - My pledge

1. Get in shape. 50 kg. Enough of self pity and whining. Get it done. I can only shopping new clothes when I reached 50 kg. Get back to M size. I know you're sick of L and XL.

Nah, I am not afraid to reveal my weight. It was last night weight.

2. Don't delay prayer time. Last year challenge was not to missed prayer 5x in a day. This time, kena up sikit. Jangan mengada nak tunggu saat2 akhir baru nak solat. Time berdoa tahu pulak nak cepat. Kawan-kawan, please jangan ikut perangai buruk ni. *self-reminder*

3. Kawalan duit yang ketat. Thank you Allah for all the nikmat and blessed. Still tak reti bersyukur asyik nak spend duit je kerja. Pastu complaint kenapa tak kahwin lagi. Duh. Come on Naz. You're being ignorant!!! Jangan malas susun budget. Jangan malas nak fikir lepas tu sedih and tension sorang2. Like what? So sorry for you. Lemah dan lembek. That is not a good quality at all.

4. Career!! Work my ass out to be what I want to be in my life goal. I want to be a super ass kickin career mum that can provide the best for the family. 

5. Less being sad, more being awesome instead! You are in control of your life. Life gets you down sometime. But not all the time. Be more productive. Instead of laying down in my bed, why don't I go and work out or cook or do anything productive other than sleep.

Basically, there are the main goal that I want to achieve next year. To blog more and keep in progress of how am I doing.

Have a happy holiday! Hohoho!

New Year '13

I wish I can hide this feeling....

But I just can't!! And I've gotta the feeling that.......

2 + 0 + 1 + 3 = AWESOME

 

 

InshaAllah. =D

Devil's Tears

Happy Weekend!

Boy, can't believe my Saturday went off just like that. Watched Sinister and its pretty good paranormal movie.

Nothing fancy to update, just few random stuff that I have in mind.

1. Madness by muse is a sexy song! ;D

2. When seeing most of my friends getting married or engaged, I feel like a loser. Trying to act cool and keep telling myself that I am still 25 years young!

3. Why most of popular birthday cake is round? Kalau square tak rasa birthday cake, but more to kek raya. And why pizza is round as well? Hmm...

4. My car ran out of fuel last Friday. Surprisingly, I feel so calmed and not panic. Lucky my bestie help me out with his husband.

5. I just love the current weather. Damp and raining. It feel so good to sleep with my favorite cotton pajamas.

6. Cat just a super cute creature. Sadly, I don't know how to pamper and cuddle them.

And that the most of it. What's on my mind.

Goodnight!

Positivity

I was hanging out with my good friend this evening and we reminiscing our first time during the interview of my current company.

While we having a good laugh at it, suddenly I remembered my first interview session and the final question from one of the panel interviewer (which is the GM of HR which obviously I didn't know who he was at first) ask me a question.

"What can you contribute to this company?"

Without thinking long enough, I spontaneously answered.

"I can bring positive vibe."

And he said, "What is this girl talking about? What do you mean? What positive can bring to the company?"

I was nervous like hell during that time and blaming myself for choosing the wrong answer. But I did answered him back.

"It means, when there is obstacle, and things become so negative at the workplace, I will shine out the positive vibe."

He silent and looking skeptically at me. In fact the whole room was silent. I make my way out and I thought I didn't make it.

But now, the rest is history.

So, I need to remind myself, to stay positive, no matter what obstacles come.

Have a good evening!

Namanya Cinta

Cinta. Anugerah Ilahi yang tak ternilai harganya. It is amazing how can we have such feeling, rite? People around the world talk about it, in the movie, in a song, a book, a story, semualah. Love boleh buat kita rasa happy, jump over, excited, but at the same time love juga boleh buat kita rasa really down, depress and moody.

When love is not madness, it is not love. I totally agree with it. We tend to do crazy stuff when we're in love and the most precious moment is when we spend time with our loved one and the feeling, I tell you, memang high and tersangat best. Betul tak? Come on la, tipulah kalau korang tak pernah experience this stuff.

I always believe the true love of my life will be my husband. Yes, I am not married yet. Tapi dari dulu lagi I percaya my true love, the one for me is my husband. But in my case right now, my future husband kot. Huhu.

I am not going to tell you how great and awesome my love is (because he is), but to share with you about my opinion about love.

Believe it or not, I took advice about love from my family especially my mum. Yeah, Im kinda old skool girl I guess. But I always believe in what my mum said. Because when our heart shattered into pieces like a broken glass, who's the one who help you pick it up? Mum ofcourse and it will always be mum.

I've done something that I am not proud of, failed myself, etc, but in the end mum always be there, forgiving and always loving. (Tapi lepas tu kena tahan telinga lah dengar dia perli and membebel).

The point is, love is a gift, a wonderful feeling, a joy. Appreciate it and take a good care of it. But dont forget, the one who give us all the feeling, Allah the Almighty. When things doesnt go your way, remember, He always know what's the best for us. All we can do is pray for the best. I'A.

Cheers!

Twenty Eleven's Hopes

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Helloooooooooooooooooooooooo!

What? Its new year already? Yeay! Happy 2011!!

It means me and mr love had rockin' each other world for 3 years! And InsyaAllah, for many years more! HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY, darl! What did he gave me this time? Not material things though. Only we've been dating through wc. LDR memang sux sometime. ;(

So, I've been thought about my new year resolution/plan/wishlist/mission.

• Be more postive and optimistic. Less complaint. Less comparing.


• Create more positive vibrant and energy around me. Embrace other speacialness.


• Not to missed a 5 times prayer. Amin.


• Working smarter and harder. Climb that corporate ladder, baby!


• Owning a smart phone - I had HTC, BB and iphone in mind right now.


• Fit in M size perfectly! Make sure L size is way bigger for me.


• New watch - Nothing specific brand in mind right now.


• Make sure saving 10% from whatever sources of my income in fix deposit monthly


• Getaway to a perfect beach - Thinkin about Sabah / Thailand maybe?


• Wang besar to give away during raya. Payback time to the family.


• New camera! (Kalau ada rezeki lebih)


• Be on the top of the world again!


• Kahwin? Hmm....

Hope 2011 will bring us a lot more success, best in health, uncountable wealth, endless love, more joy and happiness and make us a better human and God's slave.

I love you people! Muachx! xoxo

Tougher Heart

Dear sunshine and everything nice,

Please come here to cheer me up. To remind myself how wonderful life is. To remember back all my dreams. To give me courage to chase them back.

Dear rainbow and flowers,

Please take away all this tears. Ease up the pain inside my chest. Take away this bleeding heart. Cuz I feel like I can't take it anymore.

Dear sugar and cupcakes,

Why you didn't bring joy to my life like it used to be? Did I do something hurtful to you? Well, if I did, forgive me, and let my taste bud enjoy you and gave me fireworks.

Dear Nazurah,

Hang on tight, dear. You're stronger than you think. And I promise you all the good things will come your way..... soon.

Lots of Love,
Tougher heart

Anti-social

That is exactly how I feel for the last few months.

Pfft!

Anyway, totally in love with The Next 3 Days movie. I dont know why the rating suck for this movie in the internet.

Still, its one of my favourite movie.

Ps. I want to be a wife desperately

Finale

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Hey guys!

I know. I know. I've been such a whore whining endlessly about my new place. I even wondered to myself, why I hate this new place so much?

The truth is, it is not the place that I hate. I hate the fact that I am 1hour 50mins away from loved one. And I wish it is only 1hour and 50mins drive away. But its not. What if I am so broke during the time I feel like going home so badly? How? Blurgh.

The fact that actually I am not mentally ready to start a new life far away from the place that was familiar to me.

Optimist. Positive. Desire.

Its time to really get into myself to know and decide what I really want in my life.

Its time.

I am in control of my life. NOT OTHERS.

Listen to me please..

To tell the truth, I dah malas nak update blog. My mood kill everything. I feel so left out, alone and lonely.

Currently right now Im in Sibu. It's been only 3days but my heart and chest feel like I cant take it anymore.

Homesick like crazy. Like hell.

I miss my old life. I miss my family. I miss my friends. And mostly I miss my boyfie.

Prayer help me to become stronger, Alhamdullilah. But, everytime, I feel like there's a big hole inside my chest, bleeding and in pain.

Im out of tears but my heart insist to cry myself a river. (Haha)

I wonder where life going to take me after this. Life is ironic sometime. But Im the kind of person who strongly believe that everything happen for a reason.

The first time I went off from home is to Taiping where I continued y form 4 and 5 in MRSM Taiping. Im proud with my school and this is the place that really change my life. I met a group of great friends there and we're still like sisters and my classmates, the best sibling in the world. I think every person from MRSM Taiping have a bond, an intimacy that all of us can feel.

Then, to Changlun. Yeah, I did my matriculation here in KMK (Kolej Matrikulasi Kedah). I still remembered the first time I cried because I was like where the heck is changlun? Is it even exist in the Malaysia map? But, hey, that is one of the place I treasured. The food was damn good and CHEAP!

Move on to my uni days where I went to JB, I mean Skudai for UTM. This is the place where I grow to be better and never look back to underestimate myself or others. This is the place where I finally know what I want and what I want to become. I found my bestest friend here who happen to be my lover, my soulmate. I hope we'll continue our journey together after this, InsyaAllah.

Along the way of these journey, ofcourse I met a lot of people and friends and I think each of them leave a mark inside me, even the tiniest remark.

Im so melancholic. Boo!

I wish things will be better after this.

I wish.

Lots of love,
Primadona Klasik

PROTON

Helllooooo everyoneee!! Geez, its been awhile since last I posted something here. Sorry for M.I.A. Last week is like a crazzeehh week for me! From JB to KL to JB to Desaru to KL again within 4days. I feel tired like hell, but, hey, that's the price I had to pay.

So, why I sound so excited?It is because I scored a job in proton! Woohoo! I know some of you will be skeptical like "eleh, kecoh, proton je pun." Haha. I dont care! Im proud of it! You dont know what I have to gone through to get the position.

First of all, I did not know it is quite hard to be a part of proton compared to other GLC. They really pay a lot of effort and money to make proton a strong brand like it used to in the 90's. And, by that, they really carefully selected newbies to work with them.

Last week, I attend proton assessmnet centre in The Summit Hotel, Subang Jaya. Its a two day program where all the selected candidate from various interview before to be assess by them and they will choose the right people that meet their criteria. I had to say that all of them are good, you know. They look so presentable, intelligent and they know how to talk for sure! The total of people went there about 38 and if im not mistaken, only half of them were selected.

I had fun doing the thing. What's not? I mean I met new people and make new friend, staying in a hotel and eating good food. Doing activities that challenging and athletic! Really! Its only 2days program, but I feel like going to the gym straight in a week. (Ok, maybe I exaggerate but hey, penat taw!)

And the trainers, best sangat! I learn a lot from them. In the end of the program, one of the trainer said something that really stuck in my mind. He said something like this;

"Everyone have dreams and goals. Everyone want to be success. But what is succcess? You have to specific in what you want to achived. Be visualized. Then only you can achieved it. Example, if you want to buy a house, what kind of house? where is it located? You have to know specifically which house you want, the exact address."

I guess he made a point there.

Don't get me wrong eh people. I didn't mean to sound so proud or arrogant or 'eksyen'. It just something I want to share with you guys. I feel thankful because one of my aim in my career is to be in a big company. Alhamdullilah. This is just a beginning.

P/s- To be continued.....

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Random thoughts

1. I think the only way to make us feel peaceful is to have good relationship with God, family and friends.
2. Im not really a religious person or something like that, but having faith in God is essential.
3. Nowadays, I always feel like something is missing. When I think hard about it, I dont feel satisfied with my life.
4. But when I feel sorry for myself or my life, there is a lot more unfortunate people out there and they can still have smile in their faces. So, be thankful.
5. Learning to managed my financial for the future.
6. I love kelish so much. She's hardcore and reliable. I dont want to trade it with my father's car. :(
7. Monday always killed my mood.
8. Still battling with my weight. Endlessly.
9. I miss my boyfie. ;(
10. I know Im a tough girl. So, dont give up with your dreams. And so do to the rest!

Live life to the fullest. Smile. Love. Peace.

Blossom in my heart!

Wow! I feel like yesterday I wrote the last post and its Friday already!

Today was a good day. Alhamdullilah. =)

My family is here in town and we had so much so fun today! My aunt, uncle and cuzzies are here as well. We chat and gossip and laughing and oh, we did some shopping too! Double happiness!

I got my first sales too! And it is far more than what I expected. You see, my job is not that bad after all. (This one is a note to myself as I am the one who always complaint)

Today was the first time I used my debit card too! It feel thrilling when the moment I signed at the receipt for the first time! I mean, wow! I shopped with my own money that I earned!! with my own debit card!! with my own sweat!! Haha. Okay2. Sorry cause I got too excited.

A friend of mine say something meaningful to me. Sometime, it is all not about luck. But it is about "rezeki" (a gift from God). Tuhan tak baling dadu untuk tentukan sesuatu. It's deep. Think about it.

Enjoy your weekends people!!

Monday Blues

Yeah. Everyone hate monday. So do I.

So, today, only 5 of us in the office. (minus 2 of the management, ok) Yeah, its a small office but totally comfortable. In fact, too comfortable as the aircond way too cold.

Usually, I would curse how bad and totally sucka job that I had.

But, today, I decided to look on the bright side. It is not all that bad. But still, there is a bit. bad. side.

I think I already spend half of my salary. Great. Life is great. I did not shop for a lot of things except necessary stuff. Still, money hate me. They tend to leave me HIGH and DRY. Yeah.

I dont know why, but have you ever been in a situation where a person try to bring you down by saying that they're great where in fact actually they are not?

I have. And I feel sorry for that person. I mean, come on la. Why you have to ridicule your friend and trying to impress them by saying your life is better, where the fact is it isn't any better at all.

That is not nice I think. In my opinion, people like this are actually not satisfied with their life and try to make themselves feel better by saying nasty things about others.

Be nice. Be kind. Be humble. I need to remind myself those things too.

Another 4 days to go before the weekends. Have a productive week peeps! Love~

Work and Play

Tomorrow is monday. Bloody monday, literally. So, how's your weekend? Any good? Good. Good.

A lot of things running on my mind right now. I dont know where to start. It's been a week after I started working. There's a good day where your boss give you compliment or having a good time with your collegue, and of course there's a bad day where you feel like crying all the way back home with soppy song playing on the track of your car.

The thing that had messed up my mind is that I had an interview invitation in one of leading automotive company, but I decided not to go. I dont know whether it is the right thing to do. A lot of pros and cons that I had considered. I only hoping to God that He will show me the way. I believe that rezeki is everywhere..

But my parents seemed a bit dissapointed when I said that I am not going. I've got my own reason for this. It is a long term plan. Have faith in me, okay.

And oh, I just want to share a good news. I managed to cross off one of my mission. I've got a quite good results in my exams, and InsyaAllah, I'll be graduate with CGPA >3.50. Even it is not really the best, but I am still proud of it. Now, I can move foward and fullfill all my other missions and dreams.

My sister, Nedy, had got her matrix reults. Pray for her that she'll get a place in the uni of her choice, ok?

My daddy had just brought a new car, which means, I am no longer can ask moo-lah from him. *I hate this part the most* How I miss my life being sponsored by my parents. I am shy to ask more money from them. But, money and I are never bestfriend. They never stick with me in the long time. T_T

My car had a problem with the aircond, but I am too broke to fix it. (I am always broke, right?)

Staying with my granny had made me a very independent lady. I had to do all of the house chores and this makes me missing my bibik back home. But hey, lets look on the bright side. It will my exercises routine and I am on my way to be thin again. Yeah. My granny always said that staying with her will be a preparation for me to be a wife. Yelah. I want my own bibik after this. Boleh kan b?

I am more organized now. Bilik dah tak bersepah lagi.

I hope you guys have an awesome sunday. Till again. Muachx.

I feel thankful

Alhamdullilah, I had a great time with my family here in Shah Alam before I start my new life working in Johor Bahru soon.

I feel excited and of course scared at the same time.

I'll be missing my family especially all my little precious sisters and brother. :'(

Horlicks Panas

I just having my supper, hot horlicks with chocolate chips biscuit. I hate to deal with my weight issues as my boyfie and his besfriend teasing me about my weight. My aunt is also making the same remark. It is time to shred few kilos. *Self-determined*