Nightmare

A lazy Friday.

I feel exhausted. I feel negative today and I let them win.

It is still feel like a bad nightmare. Really. It is like you feel traumatized after experiencing something really bad. Something that you cannot forget. Something that you hold grudges to. And it is so not cool.

I am always the kind of person who forgive and forget. I mean life is short anyway. Just enjoy and forgive people. And I dont get why some people are hard to forgive and forget.

Until I had my experience.

Sometime people hard to forgive and forget because they put their all in a person or a place or an association. When those things violated their trust, that is when people can't forgive and forget.

That is why Islam always teach us to be moderate. In everything we do. Be it relationship or work or even cooking. Terlebih garam tak sedap juga makanan kan walaupun garam tu yang buat makanan jadi sedap.

It means don't put your all to others but only for Allah. Keep it a little to yourself. No matter how you feel vulnerable to. Just don't. Be moderate.

Oh my. I still feel like I don't have a proper exit from my last phase of life. I know I should move on and chill about it. I had a better life anyway. But the memories come and visit me sometime and whenever they do, I feel anger and sad and hateness!

Maybe I am not feeling well today. Or maybe I think too much. Maybe I let the negativity to suck out my sunshine inside of me.

Sabar. Chill. Let Go.

Yes. Let Go.

Be happy Naz. You know you deserve this. Just ignore whatever shit that used to haunt you.

Hasbuna Allah wa na'm al wakil
God is enough for us. He is the best protector.

Always keep in mind. Climbing up of the career ladder is fascinating in a way. But, that is not what success measured by. It is just a journey. Not a destination. Success is measured by what you value the most in life. Is it Fame? Money? Power? Beauty? or Life? Kindness perhaps?

Remember. Life is temporary. The real destination is always akhirat. Syurga atau Neraka?

Doa. Semoga Allah memaafkan kita dan membersihkan hati kita dari tak tenteram dan keluh kesah.

Commitment, Passion, Focused and Honest!

Be sincere.

It could be one of a tip to score a job interview. I had a conversation with one of the panel for the job interview and he told me that they interviewed a lot of candidate for the position. A lot of them are super ambitious and came from well known company but they choose me because I am appear to be the most sincere. I am touched hearing that.

While experience and knowledge is the most important factor in 'selling' yourself, don't forget that they judge you more than that.

Be yourself. Be true to your dreams.

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On the other note, last night conversation with my lil sister.

Ezzah : Kakwa, cepatlah kahwin. Ezzah nak ada anak buah. Nak baby. Jeles tengok kawan Ezzah ada baby boleh main.

Me : Takkanlah lepas kahwin tu terus dapat baby. Kakwa rasa macam nak tunggu dulu.

Ezzah : Kakwa, you're 27. By the time kahwin dah 28. You're not getting younger anymore. Nanti dah umur 30 dah lambat nak ada baby.

Me :..........................speechless..................

Oh, little sister, you grew up so fast!

Ps. The title is referring to my value towards success. It was inspired from Damn Good Advise book by George Lois.

Rezeki

I feel the urge to write. Maybe because I feel overwhelmed of my new job. I am thankful to Allah about that. No doubt. He is the Master of all of us. Maha pemberi rezeki.

Everything that happen in life is Allah's will. Have faith and believe in Him.

I still remember one of my coach in a training told me this. "Sometime, we feel confuse with what's happening in our life. But, as you grow, you will be thankful for all the thing that happened to you. In order for you to get the things that you want, you will experience things you don't like. But it is all as a preparation."

I've got to agree with this lady though.

It is good to build a relationship with people around you. And keep in touch with them once in a while. I just texted one of my favourite lecturer back in UTM. Surprisingly, he still remember me. Maybe I should catch up with him when I come down to JB one day.

I also planned to treat my ex boss lunch. She gave me a good recommendation and I feel like I owed her. May god repay her kindness.

Be positive all the way!

Prayer to MH370

MH370 is in the news headline nationwide, or maybe worldwide. My deep condolences and prayer goes to all the passengers, crew cabin and of course their families. The aircraft went missing since last Saturday. No news heard until today.

Semoga Allah mempermudahkan usaha untuk mencari kapal MH370. Never underestimate the power of prayers. Miracle do happen, InshaAllah.

I am saddened by this incident because it involve MAS and our fellow Malaysian. Despite all the negative news about MAS last few years, I always fond of the airlines. I think because my dad used to work for MAS for 10 years and I still remember followed him to workplace in Subang Airport and I will be fascinated by the air planes in the runaway.

It is even more saddened when I read articles about the captain pilot who is very passionate about flying and mechanical stuff while his co pilot happen to be my junior in MRSM Taiping (although I did not personally know him, but he's part of my something I am proud of).

And reading about the families hope to see their loved one to come back home again....plus the speculation lagi... And I even shed tears reading those without realising it.

Sesungguhnya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui semua kejadian di langit dan di bumi. Don't stop praying to Allah.

March 2014

Hi!

Wow. 2014 already. Alhamdullilah. It means I am 27th this year. Really? Looking back when I was in secondary school, studying for SPM, I was always wondering how will I be when I was 27 or 28 years old. Now, here I am. I can't never thank Allah for his blessing and opportunity He gave.

I'll be starting a new work place soon. Next week to be exact. I just had experience crucible in my career life at 27! I am just glad it happen even when it hurts. So, I have stories to tell when I will be a CEO one day if they ask me about my career journey. ;P I mean business is just a business, nothing personal. But, as human, of course we will feel hurt when people do things that you don't want them to.

I used to heard this a lot - "You have the potential." Until one day, one of my boss finally said this "You have the material to be on the top.". I am happy to know that. From potential to material. At least I know for myself, a little compliment to boost my motivation and to let me stay focus.

Enough with career, I think there is a silver lining behind all this. I had a chance to reflect and assess myself. I get a chance to take care of my mum in the hospital. I had the chance to focus on my relationship. Yeah. Allah is the best planner above all.

Till we meet again. <3!

For those who are too gentle to live among wolves

Al Haq

Its been a busy week (and month) as usual and I can foresee that this situation will continue until early of next year.

Work is heavy and loaded but I decided not to take it hardly as I think it is not worth to worry about it. I had small chat with daddy and I told him about my work and he said something that ease me up. :)

My current phase in a career had make me think. About life in general. I believe that everything that we had experience now, before or about to experience in the future is all coming from Allah S.W.T permission. The acceptance of all the things that happen to us is just a beautiful feeling. Knowing that Allah is taking care of the things that beyond our control.

I had started reading Quran tafsir recently. I bought one from MPH and I knew it is time to read the tafsir as I always planned to but never take action.

It is just simply beautiful and calming when we read the tafsir. And as I read the tafsir in this week (about less than 10 pages) I realize, there's 2 ayat that saying '....sesiapa yang mengikut suruhan Allah tadak akan bersedih hati....' It sound something like that. It make me think that memang fitrah manusia suka bersedih hati. But Allah had given His word that whoever obey his rules will not be sad or worry.

Memang betul. Allahu Akbar.

Oklah. I want to start working. See you!