Nice Dream

Helpless.. but still breathing...

LDR can be suck sometime. (erm, maybe all the time). Because when you're having a fight with him, you can't fight right.

I miss having a fair fight with him. Where both of us throwing out our feelings with words and our judgement on the issue and in the end, we clean up the air with a conclusion, a promise and a great date! How I miss it so badly..

I am always the one who caused the fight... It makes me feel guilty even more.......

I just want him to be my side. That is all I want for now..

Im dying slowly inside.. xxx

Map to success

Seriously, I need to plan out my life. Its been awhile since I lost the courage to move on, and now, its time. (I know, sucha drama queen)

I hope everything will go well. Everything..

I miss my other half like *no words can describe it* Im outta tears. But I still strongly believe we'll be together in the end. Amin. InsyaAllah.

I know what I want now but it all scattered inside my head like incomplete jigsaw puzzle. Yet, I am too lazy to solve the puzzle by listing it in a piece of paper and figured out the complete picture.

Alhamdullilah, the feeling of desire and passion came back to me and it gave me purpose to plan my next step.

Sabar.. Its all I can do now.. Its all I can do...

P/s- I had my very first credit card of maybank now. Woot. Woot.

Im alive and kickin

So many things... So little time....

Whoosh~

Open arms

“Uncertainty and mystery are energies of life. Don't let them scare you unduly, for they keep boredom at bay and spark creativity.”

*I need to remind myself*

Money do the talk

March Splurge : Guess? Motorchic Handbag, Swatch Brilliant Bangle

When I was in school days, I always jealous and feeling so envy to those of my rich friends. I hate myself during that time and cursing life for being so unfair. Plus, during that time my family were having some financial crisis because of my dad had just recover from a stroke. I blame my parents for what I become that time. Grumpy, ungrateful and my exam results were suck. I even did something that I was not proud of to. I am sick of my mother that kept telling me to 'be yourself'. What the hell is that suppose to mean? 'Be-proud-of-yourself-you-penniless-girl?'

That was then.

My uni life become better after that. I've reconciled with my parents. That is why I strongly believe in parents prayer and their blessed, especially my mum. I also learn that being filthy rich is not the only way to be happy and being lucky. Yes, its true, some people were born with all the privillaged, but, its their destined. We have our own and even better maybe. It is just sometime we don't realise it because we're too busy thinking about others.

That is when I decided to follow my dream. Dreams are super duper powerful motivation. Trust me people! Oh, and also being positive and optimistic. :D

My inspiration always come from the people I know, a friend doesnt matter close or not, family and from my surrounding. In every friend, I try to find out their good quality and I will try to improve myself based on theirs. I like being in harmony, dont like having any enemies and I want to be nice to everyone.

I consider myself as lucky. I have a strong supportive system and I know I have capabilities that have not shine yet. Hihi. Hey, everyone does, ok!

But, I am just human afterall, still, the feeling of envious of having more came once in awhile. That is when I keep on telling myself to be grateful and be patient. Because we'll get there..

The reason why I keep on rambling here is because ...............................................

I am undecided whether to purchase a new car or not. T_T My mum agreed to help me with the downpayment while my dad insist me to get the full loan. See, mum always will agree with you in terms of 'shopping'. Buying a car consider as shopping, right?

By the way, I spent a lot lately. Like real a lot. I promise myself to buy only ONE expensive/luxury item PER month. But this month, I purchase TWO!! Its not my fault! Its the boutique's fault who offered sale. But, yeah, I feel satisfied than ever. ;P

My term of expensive/luxury might be different from yours. So, I still consider few hundreds to spend on an item is expensive rather than few thousands. Belum sampai tahap tu lagi weh. I might be, one day, InsyaAllah, Amin.

29 February 2011?

Distance may keep us apart but you are carefully tucked in my heart.

Happy Birthday Amir Asyraf.

I love you more each year.

xoxo