Innerself

Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow - that is patience.

Agree. The truth, I just want to keep quiet and let this hardship gone through. I know it will be over soon.

All my life, this is so far the most challenge phase. Really challenging. Totally out of my comfort zone. What amaze me, I am still standing here, breathing and living life.

I'd be lying if I say I did not proud of myself. Maybe I am not doing pretty hell good job here, but I just survived. That is good enough.

Prayer is what toughen me up. Really. There is always a time that I feel like I can't take it, I remain sane because of faith in God. Not to mention my mum, dad and the rest of the family. Even I am far away, I still can feel their love to me.

I learn to become more patient and humble. I learn wisdom and faith in God. I learn to survive away from all the things that I love. I learn that material and social status is not everything. And above all, I learn that Allah is the Almighty and He is in charge of everything. Yes, everything.

Sometime I think I turn myself into a pessimist. But actually no. I become more optimist more than ever! Secretly, I have the positive-ly weapon inside of me and sometime I think it just waiting to burst out into something incredible.

InsyaAllah.

Tulu!